Several weeks went by after we lost Lucy before we made it back to a Sunday service at our church. In my previous post, I talked about why I withdrew for a period of time. In the earliest part of…
Why I Withdrew
After we lost Lucy, I naturally withdrew for awhile to process what happened, wade through the deepest depths of grief and physically heal. Besides at Lucy’s memorial, there were good friends of mine that I didn’t see for weeks. I…
Lucy’s Marker
It’s been four and one-half months since we lost Lucy. I can’t believe it’s been that long. I still ache for her to be with us every single day. We miss her so much. It took us a little while…
White Balloon
We really wanted Oliver to get to be involved in something for Lucy. As I mentioned in my previous post, he did not come to her burial and memorial services. We decided that we would have him release a white…
Telling Oliver
This sweet little man. I am backing up a bit in the story to talk about being immediately faced with the reality that we had to tell Oliver what had happened right after we lost Lucy. We had been preparing…
Tough Decisions
One of the harsh realities of losing our baby was that it caused us to have to make some tough decisions. Despite feeling as if we were drowning in deep grief, we had to somehow find a way to suck…
Losing Lucy
I have so many moments vividly pressed into my memory. Some of these moments are scenes from a nightmare, but they are real for me. There are things I can’t un-see or forget; things that I feel will never leave…
Our Second Child
I have been feeling like I should start writing about this since we lost our sweet Lucy, but until now I had not felt ready. To be honest, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever written about. Frankly, I’ve been…
