Oliver is four now and Ezra is eight months old. I can hardly believe that more than half of a year has passed since Ezra was born. He loves to jump and has the same sweet, sticky-up hair that Oliver…
37 Weeks
It has been awhile since I have written a thoughtful post. You know, the kind that consists of me spilling out my feelings to you? That kind. : ) Blogging has been tricky for me. It’s not in my nature…
One Year
Two days ago, Lucy would have turned one year old if she was still here with us. I had been dreading this day for months, scared of what it would feel like. I don’t want her and the memories of…
January
Is it really 2015? I can barely believe it. Christmas was difficult because there should have been a little girl in our arms, likely peeling back wrapping paper for the first time in her life. I am sure that her…
Yesterday I Was Nervous For Today
Yesterday, I never changed out of my pajamas. I went to bed last night in the same purple and pink stripes that I woke up in and my fuzzy slippers never left my feet. I had streaks of makeup on…
Waiting Is Hard
A couple of months ago we made a trip north to Michigan for a funeral. Although the circumstances were not good, we were glad to get to see our family and friends. I was nervous for the long drive, (Painfully…
Six Months
Every day hurts, but today hurts a lot. Six months ago our sweet Lucy was born, and six months ago we lost her. It was hello and goodbye in the same day. We went to visit her this morning on…
Life After Losing Lucy
After Lucy was born, I was able to be out of work for awhile on maternity leave and family medical leave because of my insurance through my job at Journeys. I had sixteen weeks. Sixteen weeks that when they were…
Life Before Lucy
Before Lucy was born, Shaun was a full-time, professional musician. He played lead guitar for a band called Sidewalk Prophets. The band toured a ton, so this meant a whole lot of time away from home. The few times that…
Grief To Me
Riding the waves of grief is crazy and hard. Oliver brings me so much joy. Each moment that I get to spend with him is a gift, and I am so thankful for him. I have a lot of things…
Lucy’s Marker
It’s been four and one-half months since we lost Lucy. I can’t believe it’s been that long. I still ache for her to be with us every single day. We miss her so much. It took us a little while…
White Balloon
We really wanted Oliver to get to be involved in something for Lucy. As I mentioned in my previous post, he did not come to her burial and memorial services. We decided that we would have him release a white…
