Oliver is four now and Ezra is eight months old. I can hardly believe that more than half of a year has passed since Ezra was born. He loves to jump and has the same sweet, sticky-up hair that Oliver…
37 Weeks
It has been awhile since I have written a thoughtful post. You know, the kind that consists of me spilling out my feelings to you? That kind. : ) Blogging has been tricky for me. It’s not in my nature…
32 Weeks
I was a ball of nerves for weeks before Lucy’s birthday. I felt really paralyzed. There were heaps of laundry, a messy house and unproductive days. When we got to the other side of it, I was not feeling much…
One Year
Two days ago, Lucy would have turned one year old if she was still here with us. I had been dreading this day for months, scared of what it would feel like. I don’t want her and the memories of…
Dark Closets
I would assume that almost no one loves confrontation, but some of us seem to be wired to be more equipped to deal with it than others. I choose my battles but tend to be a pretty confrontational person. I…
Yesterday I Was Nervous For Today
Yesterday, I never changed out of my pajamas. I went to bed last night in the same purple and pink stripes that I woke up in and my fuzzy slippers never left my feet. I had streaks of makeup on…
I Was Wrong
Today I am going to cut straight to the point. I am here to tell you that I was wrong. Right after we lost Lucy, I would hear about pregnant friends and see a lot of baby bump photos, pregnancy…
Waiting Is Hard
A couple of months ago we made a trip north to Michigan for a funeral. Although the circumstances were not good, we were glad to get to see our family and friends. I was nervous for the long drive, (Painfully…
