Yesterday, I never changed out of my pajamas. I went to bed last night in the same purple and pink stripes that I woke up in and my fuzzy slippers never left my feet. I had streaks of makeup on…
Nine Months
It has been nine months since we said hello and see you again someday to Lucy. The 28th of each month brings on a deeper sadness for me than all of the other days. I think of her constantly and…
I Was Wrong
Today I am going to cut straight to the point. I am here to tell you that I was wrong. Right after we lost Lucy, I would hear about pregnant friends and see a lot of baby bump photos, pregnancy…
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. We are joining with others across the world who are also missing their little ones. Everyone has been invited to light a candle at 7pm, in all time zones, and let it…
Losing Lucy Changed My Faith
It has been said that in tragedy people either run away from God or run towards Him. I get the sentiment in this saying, but for me there was no running involved; I really just breathlessly collapsed into His lap. …
Six Months
Every day hurts, but today hurts a lot. Six months ago our sweet Lucy was born, and six months ago we lost her. It was hello and goodbye in the same day. We went to visit her this morning on…
Lucy’s Things
A couple of weeks ago, I finally mustered up the courage to go into Lucy’s room and box up her things. To set aside the baby items. To make the bed where guests will sleep. To let go of the…
Life After Losing Lucy
After Lucy was born, I was able to be out of work for awhile on maternity leave and family medical leave because of my insurance through my job at Journeys. I had sixteen weeks. Sixteen weeks that when they were…
